Re-Rejected and it Feels…okay

LTYM-logoApparently, the Listen to Your Mother auditions are all hush-hush. I didn’t hear a whispered semi-reference to auditioning for the North Jersey show anywhere on Twitter or Facebook or through text. No one was talking! Except for me. Also, if you were lucky enough to go to your audition with me, people found out. Because I tweeted out that you were auditioning AS IT WAS HAPPENING.

Once I hounded several people as to whether or not they were auditioning, I scrounged up a few more people. But no one wanted it to be public. I guess it’s about rejection.

Now, a little over six months ago, I was rejected three times (thrice!) for the 2013 Voices of the Year honors at BlogHer. So this time rejection didn’t come with as much of a pang. And frankly, I had fun reading my piece out loud in front of people I respect. I liked the surge of adrenalin that came with the audition. Also — being very honest — I didn’t work that hard on the piece. I auditioned with this post about my Mom catching me sneaking to my boyfriend’s house. And other than very minor touch-ups, it was pretty much in its original form. That was totally lazy on my part.

I’d like to say my lack of effort was a defense mechanism so I could say, “Yeah, I didn’t really work on it. It wasn’t my best.” But really, I was just lazy. Busy too — but mostly lazy.

One last admission is that I feel a great sense of relief. Not that I didn’t WANT to be chosen — I did! But knowing some of the other people who auditioned, who had pieces so much more personal and filled with pathos and energy, I would have felt like CRAP if I had been chosen and they had not. Sheesh. It’s kind of embarrassing to admit that. But there you go.

I’m looking forward to hearing who will be in the North Jersey cast for Listen To Your Mother. And if any of those who are chosen suddenly develop a case of laryngitis and need someone to read for them — drop me a line. I’d love to help you out!

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Are you feeling rejected as well? Check out the writers at the challenge grid over at yeah write. A lot of them have been rejected time and time again. And they are better writers for it!

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Adjusting to car culture, dealing with leaving a career I loved, and spouting off along the way. #RESIST
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16 Responses to Re-Rejected and it Feels…okay

  1. I so wanted to do this, but then i remembered i get heart palps just standing up and saying my name. oh well.

  2. anna says:

    I believe the saying is third time’s the charm, so I can’t wait to hear what acceptance will be coming your way soon. Will you please also record yours? I’d love for us visitors here to get to hear your reading even it’s not going to be in the show!

  3. We should hang out together the night of the show since my calendar seems to be equally free that day.

  4. Stacie says:

    I’m sorry but glad you’re taking it in stride! Funny how it’s this big secret. Is that because people think that steps down the competition? Crazy!

  5. I’ve no idea what LTYM is, is that a new reality show? …oh, thanks Google! Still, I think it would make a great reality snow. Good luck, anyways!

  6. Maybe it’s b/c I haven’t been blog reading as much or spending as much time on Twitter but I’ve barely heard about LTYM this year.

  7. Kim says:

    Congrats on putting yourself out there! That takes guts! And for taking it all in stride. We can all learn from that….especially me.

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