Apparently, the Listen to Your Mother auditions are all hush-hush. I didn’t hear a whispered semi-reference to auditioning for the North Jersey show anywhere on Twitter or Facebook or through text. No one was talking! Except for me. Also, if you were lucky enough to go to your audition with me, people found out. Because I tweeted out that you were auditioning AS IT WAS HAPPENING.
— Kristin Wald (@kdwald) March 2, 2014
Once I hounded several people as to whether or not they were auditioning, I scrounged up a few more people. But no one wanted it to be public. I guess it’s about rejection.
Now, a little over six months ago, I was rejected three times (thrice!) for the 2013 Voices of the Year honors at BlogHer. So this time rejection didn’t come with as much of a pang. And frankly, I had fun reading my piece out loud in front of people I respect. I liked the surge of adrenalin that came with the audition. Also — being very honest — I didn’t work that hard on the piece. I auditioned with this post about my Mom catching me sneaking to my boyfriend’s house. And other than very minor touch-ups, it was pretty much in its original form. That was totally lazy on my part.
I’d like to say my lack of effort was a defense mechanism so I could say, “Yeah, I didn’t really work on it. It wasn’t my best.” But really, I was just lazy. Busy too — but mostly lazy.
One last admission is that I feel a great sense of relief. Not that I didn’t WANT to be chosen — I did! But knowing some of the other people who auditioned, who had pieces so much more personal and filled with pathos and energy, I would have felt like CRAP if I had been chosen and they had not. Sheesh. It’s kind of embarrassing to admit that. But there you go.
I’m looking forward to hearing who will be in the North Jersey cast for Listen To Your Mother. And if any of those who are chosen suddenly develop a case of laryngitis and need someone to read for them — drop me a line. I’d love to help you out!
Are you feeling rejected as well? Check out the writers at the challenge grid over at yeah write. A lot of them have been rejected time and time again. And they are better writers for it!