I won’t front: I’m disappointed about not having one of the three posts I put up for BlogHer’s Voices of the Year chosen at a VOTY. It actually might have more to do with a little embarrassment — seeing as how I nominated them myself, which I wasn’t comfortable doing at ALL. The “you’re a reject” email came unexpectedly, and the “this email means none of your submissions were accepted” part made me humph. Lucky for me, my sister was sitting across from me and we were both tipsy, so she basically told me to get over it and congratulate the people who were picked for VOTY. (Well, duh!) But what nags me (and any other passive-aggressive-but-still-competitive person) is WHY. As in what was WRONG with my stuff?
So, in honor of yeah write’s month-long ProBlogger #31dbbb series, I’m going to do my first ever LIST post to explore why my entries weren’t among the 100 (3%) chosen from over 2600 entries. (Can I count that as my first reason? Mass?)
1. Other people wrote better posts. This is the most obvious reason, and once I looked over the list, it was pretty clear. Seeing fellow yeah writers like Erica, Megan, Christie, Cindy, and way more than I should list in a list, made that obvious. Also, my business partner, Anna, was chosen for bringing the (very) funny – which is something I never manage to pull off very well.
2. I chose posts that were important to me, and not necessarily relatable. Getting mugged at knife-point, discussing authority and stop-and-frisk with teens, and my kid’s arthritis don’t necessarily resonate with people not in my life. And none of the reviewers are people in my life. And haven’t we had enough of the white teacher/black kids stuff?
3. None of the categories worked for me. Let’s just shove humor into the farthest unreachable corner where it’s always been for me. But heart? I’m too private for that. (Although I think that’s where I stuck all three.) Inspiration? Too cynical. Op-Ed? My opinionated posts tend to be about education and guns. And haven’t we had enough of the school and shooting stuff?
4. I just didn’t care enough. As regular readers know, I’ve been a little busy with gun violence prevention activism. My blogging has slowed, and I have not been a supportive community member in the blogging community. I really only read the yeah write weekly entries any more, and I only comment on a few of those. So basically, that supportive karma (if you believe in that kind of stuff) never came around because it didn’t go around.
5. I just wasn’t good enough. It’s the whole it’s not them, it’s me thing. And I’m okay with that. (For a much more classy and polished version of that sentence, read this from one of my favoritist bloggers, Nicole Blades at Ms. Mary Mack.) And the one thing I can take comfort in is that another voice won’t be reading my words to an audience. I feel such possessiveness about my writing that I do feel relief in that.
In the end, I’ll follow my sister’s tipsy, but solid advice: Congratulations to ALL the VOTY 2013 honorees! Enjoy the moment, you deserve it! And please, don’t let it go to your head. Keep writing the good stuff.
Want to improve your blog with a bunch of awesome bloggers? There are a bunch of VOTY 2013 in there! Check out yeah write’s month-long #31dbbb series during July.